getting there

im getting there. if anything i have gained weight and am afraid to look at the scale. i havent had time to work out and i havent been focused enough on my food. but i have finals and i need to crash for it. so many major projects due. so i have learned that i like to stress eat. which is okay. all i have to do is learn to reach for the celery. or pickles. i LOVE pickles. i feel like hell. but i think break will give me time i need to get there. i want to get there. i am getting there. loveyourselfeveryone. weighthin.

ultrasound

so today i had to go to the hospital to get an ultra sound for my sever abdominal pain. since it was a saturday, the hospital had to call in a tech. seeing how i was the only person sitting in radiology,when the tech got there she walked right over to me and asked how far along i was. that made me want to rip the fat off me and die right there. needless to say i now have new motivation. weigh thin everyone.

creativity

So when i was looking for ways to excerise today i thought itd be agood idea to jump off the couch to put the star on top of the tree. boy was i wrong. lights burn. but it was fun. be creative. and i learned my favorite food is celery. its the only food i feel good about eating. ive been eating it nonstop. finals are in two weeks so ive been stress eating. tip: lock yourself in your room or go to the library or something. i love the KU library. only take a couple dollars so you cant get anything to eat though! weighthin.

babysitting

so i havent posted in a while because i had to babysit for a woman who hurt her back and her husband was out of town. she is a great woman and i went do her house after school and spent nights there. the only problem with that is her forcing me to eat. this is a problem. my current weight is 139 which is definatly where i DID NOT want to be. i made it through thanks giving and lost weight until this lady!! so i think im going to have to do some extreme work outs later. point is you cant give up and even though i HATE myself now, i know i wont always. keep strong. be thin.